“Thank God he’s not my problem anymore.” The woman said it loud enough for the whole row to hear, watching me struggle with my cane.
I’ve been parking in this lot for three years, ever since I started my job at the VA office two blocks over. I know every face in this lot. I know the attendant, Marcus, who always waves me through. I know the woman who said that – her name is Diane, and she works at the insurance company on the fourth floor.
She’s mocked me before. Little things. A look. A sigh when I take too long at the elevator. But that day she said it OUT LOUD, to a coworker, like I was furniture.
I didn’t say a word.
I just watched her walk inside.
Two weeks later, I was loading my bag into the car when a man I’d never seen came up behind me.
“You work at the VA?” he said.
“I do,” I said.
“You know a woman named Diane Marsh? Works upstairs?”
My hand stopped moving. “Why?”
“She’s my sister,” he said. “I’m trying to find her. I’m a veteran. Twelve years. I’ve been trying to get my benefits processed for eight months and every time I call, I get her voicemail.”
I went completely still.
“She’s been blocking your case,” I said. It wasn’t a question.
“I don’t know that. I just know nothing’s moving.”
I told him to come to my office. I pulled his file. I found three requests marked PENDING – all sitting in Diane’s queue. All flagged for follow-up. All untouched.
“She knew,” I said.
“What do you do now?” he said.
I picked up the phone and called my supervisor, Terry.
“Terry,” I said. “I need you to pull Diane Marsh’s caseload. All of it. Today.”
“That’s a big ask, Hector.”
“I know,” I said. “Do it anyway.”
Three days later, Marcus called me over when I pulled in.
“That woman from the fourth floor,” he said. “She cleaned out her desk this morning.”
I was still taking that in when my phone rang. It was the veteran’s brother.
“They’re auditing her entire department,” he said. “Hector, they found FORTY-SEVEN cases like mine.”
What You Learn, Working at the VA
I came back from Fallujah in 2009 with a knee that doesn’t work right anymore and a ringing in my left ear that’s never stopped. Not once. Not for fifteen years.
The VA hired me in 2021. Benefits coordinator. Which sounds like a desk job, and it is, mostly. But the thing about this desk is what lands on it. Folders. Names. Discharge papers. Medical assessments written in the flat language of bureaucracy that somehow still manage to describe a person’s entire life falling apart.
I know what it means when a case sits.
I know what it means when a file gets flagged for follow-up and nobody follows up.
I’ve seen guys wait two years. I’ve seen widows trying to get survivor benefits while they’re also trying to figure out how to feed their kids. I’ve seen men who served three tours come in with paperwork so confusing they just gave up. Walked out. Never came back.
So I take this job seriously. Maybe too seriously, some people think. Terry has told me more than once that I need to stop eating lunch at my desk, stop staying until six when everyone else leaves at four-thirty. He’s not wrong. But I look at these files and I think about my own name in a folder somewhere, years ago, and someone deciding whether to pick up the phone or let it sit another week.
I pick up the phone.
The Parking Lot
The lot is on Garfield, half a block from the corner, one of those old urban structures with the low ceilings that make you feel like the building is thinking about sitting down on you. Three levels. I’m on the second because the ramp is easier than the stairs and the elevator smells like something died in it circa 2018.
Marcus runs the booth at the entrance. He’s been there longer than I have. He’s got a photo of his granddaughter taped to the inside of the booth window and he always has the radio going, something old, usually Motown. He knows my car, a gray Civic with a crack in the rear bumper, and he waves me through before I even roll down the window.
That’s a small thing. It’s not a small thing.
Diane parks on the second level too. Different section, but I see her most mornings. She’s in her early fifties, I’d guess. Dark coat, always. Hair pulled back. She moves fast, the way people do when they’ve decided the rest of the world is an inconvenience.
The first time she did something, I thought I’d imagined it. I was slower than usual that day, the knee was bad, cold weather does that, and I heard a sound behind me. A breath, sharp and impatient. I turned and she was there, three feet back, staring at her phone. Maybe it wasn’t about me. I let it go.
The second time, she held the elevator and then let the doors close when she saw me coming. Maybe she didn’t see me. I let that go too.
By the third or fourth time, I wasn’t letting anything go, I was just deciding not to say anything. There’s a difference. Letting go means you’re free of it. Deciding not to say anything means you’re carrying it but you’ve chosen not to put it down in front of her.
I carried it.
Then came the day she said it out loud.
“Thank God He’s Not My Problem Anymore”
I don’t know what she meant by it. I’ve turned it over enough times that I’ve stopped trying to figure out the logic. Maybe she’d had a bad morning. Maybe she just needed someone to be less than her for a minute.
Her coworker laughed. Not loud. Just enough.
I was maybe eight feet away. I had my bag on my shoulder and my cane in my right hand and I was moving toward my car, and I heard it, every word, and I stopped walking for one second. Just one. Then I kept going.
I didn’t turn around. I didn’t say anything. My jaw was tight enough that I felt it in my temples, but I got to my car, I put my bag in the back seat, I sat down, and I sat there for about four minutes before I started the engine.
I thought about going back up to her. I thought about finding her supervisor. I thought about a lot of things.
Then I thought: I have seventeen open cases on my desk and at least three of them have people waiting on calls I haven’t made yet. And I drove to work.
The Man in the Parking Lot
His name is Ray. Raymond Cobb. He’s forty-one, served in the Army, two deployments, got out in 2018 and spent a couple years figuring out what to do with himself, which is a story I’ve heard about a hundred times and it never gets less heavy.
He’d driven two hours to come to this building because his calls weren’t going anywhere and he’d finally decided to just show up in person. He didn’t know which office to go to. He was standing in the lot trying to look at his phone when he saw my VA badge on my lanyard and took a chance.
He’s a quiet guy. Big, but quiet. The kind of quiet that comes from having learned not to take up too much space. He told me about the benefits in three sentences, flat, like he’d rehearsed it to keep himself from getting angry.
Eight months. Voicemail. Nothing moving.
When he said Diane’s name, I didn’t react. I kept my face where it was. I asked him to follow me.
My office is small. One window that looks at a brick wall. I’ve got a plant on the filing cabinet that Terry gave me as a joke when I first started, said it was the office’s “emotional support plant,” and somehow the thing is still alive, which I think means something, though I couldn’t tell you what.
I pulled Ray’s file in about four minutes.
Three requests. All PENDING. All sitting in the same queue, flagged for follow-up, dated months apart, which meant someone had looked at them at least three times and put them back down.
I read through the notes. There weren’t many. That was the thing. A file this old should have notes. Should have a trail of contacts, attempts, updates. There was almost nothing.
Ray was sitting across from me. He watched my face.
“She knew,” I said.
He didn’t answer right away. Then: “What does that mean for me?”
“It means we’re going to fix it,” I said. “Today.”
The Phone Call
Terry didn’t want to do it. Not because he’s a bad guy. Terry’s actually decent. But pulling one person’s entire caseload is a thing. It generates paperwork. It raises questions. It makes other people nervous.
“What am I going to find, Hector?” he said.
“I don’t know exactly,” I said. “But I know you’re going to find something.”
There was a pause. I could hear him thinking.
“This related to Ray Cobb?” he said.
“It started there.”
Another pause. “You sure about this?”
“Terry,” I said. “She’s got a PENDING file in her queue from eleven months ago. Eleven months. And there are no notes.”
He pulled the caseload.
It took three days for the full picture to come together, and even then I was only getting pieces of it. What I knew was that Terry had gotten quiet in a way that meant things were worse than expected. He stopped stopping by my office to talk about the Eagles. He was on calls a lot. His door was closed.
On the third morning, Marcus waved me through like always, and then he leaned out the booth window.
“Hey, Hector. That woman from the fourth floor.” He paused. “She came in this morning with boxes.”
I sat with that for a second.
“Boxes,” I said.
He nodded. “Cleaned out her desk. Left before nine.”
Forty-Seven
Ray called me that afternoon.
He’d been contacted by someone from the oversight office. They were expediting his case. He’d have a decision within thirty days, they told him, and someone would be in touch directly, not voicemail, a real person.
He was quiet on the phone for a moment after he told me that. Then he said, “They’re auditing her whole department. Hector, they found forty-seven cases like mine.”
I was at my desk. The plant was on the filing cabinet behind me. The brick wall was out the window.
Forty-seven.
Forty-seven people who had done everything right. Filled out the forms, sent the paperwork, called the number, left the messages. Done everything they were supposed to do and then waited, and waited, and got nothing back because their file was sitting in a queue that someone had decided wasn’t worth her time.
Some of those forty-seven had probably given up. Some of them had probably decided the system just didn’t work and walked away. Some of them were probably still waiting, still calling, still getting the voicemail.
I didn’t say any of that to Ray.
“I’m glad you came to the lot that day,” I said.
“Me too,” he said.
I hung up and sat there for a minute. My knee was aching, the way it does when I’ve been in the chair too long. I put my hand on the desk and stood up, slowly, the way I always do.
Then I picked up the next file.
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